A Devotional
For the record this is bullshit. My child should not be dead! But I’m not angry at God! I don’t believe he takes people away to cause pain. He takes them for a multitude of reasons and one is because the lessons they were sent here to teach are complete. This is what I believe about my Alex.
His life was a miracle. Another vessel carried him and that person tried everything in their power to abort that baby short of an actual abortion. He had every drug known to man and yet he wasn’t a “drug baby” meaning, he didn’t go through withdrawl. He was under 6# at birth and that person never wanted him. I had him his first nights out of the hospital and right then I knew God sent him to me.
He never left our home but we had to fight hard to keep him.
He filled a hole we didn’t know existed. He was our first son. And he was made for us.
There are so many stories in the Bible about God taking children and children dying. But he isn’t doing it as a punishment. He’s teaching us something!
Alex was sent to my husband and I to teach us. He was our angel. Of course I’d rather he was here but I’m comforted knowing he’s safe and whole.
I’m horribly and achingly sad. My heart is shattered and I look for signs of him everywhere. I hear his voice in my head and his face is always on my mind. I imagine his touch and his silly ways.
I’ll miss him forever. He will always be my baby and I will ache for him every day for the rest of my life.
I hope to also learn from him and I want others to do the same.
“Children are a heritage from the Lord, offspring a reward from him” Psalm 127:3
“All your children will be taught by the Lord, and great will be their peace” Isaiah 54:13
Actions/ Questions
Hug your children tight and tell them you love them so much they roll their eyes. It’ll be fine.
Right now go back and watch videos of them when they’re little. Make sure everything is backed up. Don’t lose a moment.
Post a favorite photo of your babies below. I’d love to see them.
What’s one thing you can do to show your kids they are your entire world?
Have you had the conversation with your kids about death? If not maybe now’s a good time (age appropriate of course)
Do you volunteer anywhere that directly impacts children? If not, look into it. It may change your life.
My Journey’s My Own 
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